Is It Too Much To Ask?
I am in search of a new self
which is forever in good health.
I don’t like the pain i have had;
otherwise it hasn’t been bad.
If i am to be born again,
i’d like to be feeling no pain.
I’m not asking for happiness
or the relief of loneliness.
With love i am never alone,
and i will find love on my own;
but the thing i need some help with
is the pain which i can’t forgive.
I’m not sure i really deserve
whatever is pinching a nerve.
But if i do, i still don’t care;
i still think the pain is unfair.
I know some people have it worse
but that doesn’t relieve the curse.
I am also resentful of
the pain of people who i love.
I try to love my enemy
altho my pain doesn’t love me.
In my next life i would like to be
thankful because we are pain free.

Walt Abbott–4-27-2009